Thursday, February 11, 2010
Finding the I in You
In preparation for the NY Writers Workshop Non-Fiction Pitch Conference this weekend, I got to thinking about self-definition. Over this weekend, I’m going to have to pitch my memoir to various editors in the publishing world. As much as I’d like to sell my book, the very idea of selling myself – out loud – to deemed experts, is a little daunting.
For me, there’s a pattern here of defining myself from the outside-in. Sure, other people’s opinions are important, especially when they’re making decisions related to my future. But, are their opinions the only ones that matter? As I got to thinking more about this, I realized that I’ve been falling prey to this not-so-helpful pattern for most of my life. Well, I’m done. I’m ready to break those old patterns of self-definition. Thank you very much Mars in retrograde. Yep. I believe I’m onto something here.
With Pluto in my 12th, I’m getting a lot of help with this. Pluto’s been shining the light on all things dark and scary. The 12th house represents all things in the background – it’s our psychic closet if you will. Insert Pluto into the mix and it’s a regular, “Wow. I haven’t thought about this in years fest.” Pluto’s energy is emotional, so there’s a lot of instinct involved in any Pluto transit. I’ve experienced and heard from others that with Pluto around, it sometimes feels like crawling around in the dark feeling your way through.
Mars takes things to yet another level. In Leo since October, Mars has been stirring up all things identity-related. Leo’s ruler, the Sun is the quintessential representation of ego and self. Think of the Sun and its presence. Now, think about a Leo and his/her presence. Leo’s know who they are – they are true individuals, never asking for permission to be who they are. Mars is energy – warrior energy. Put the two together and you’ve got a whole lot of people out there trying to assert themselves individually, without apology.
But the Universe is smart. Retrogrades get a bad rap, but I’m here to tell you, they are necessary. This particular transit needs a retrograde or else you’d have people going like gangbusters without any attention to circumstance or more importantly, consequence. I’m all for individuation. In fact, I think the world could use more and more of it. However, it’s not something to be taken lightly. The process of the Mars transit through Leo will take six months in total, ending in early June. Until then, it might be helpful to take a look at the process and how to use it your advantage.
As I said earlier, the energy of Mars in Leo centers around individualization. For some, it’s natural and the Mars transit has accelerated their already unique position in the world. For most, however, it’s a bit more tricky. Mars is power and its entry into Leo may have left many of you feeling like you woke up one morning and wow! - who is this person staring back at me in the mirror. But, you ignore it and go about your day, your week, your life. However, something’s different. Slowly, you notice that certain things are no longer working for you in the same way they’ve been for as long as you can remember. Maybe you’re tired of listening to your friends go on and on about themselves, never bothering to ask about your life. Perhaps you’re sick of pretending that your boss’ blatant disrespect doesn’t bother you. Whatever your story is, if you’re “mad as hell and not going to take it anymore”, you’re feeling Mars alright.